Thursday, October 20, 2011

Quinton Oliver Wall

Sorry this is so late, but on September 20th 2011 @ 6.36 pm Quinton was born. He lived for 27 wonderful minutes where he sneezed a lot ( apparently just like me:) and when hank held him near my face he tried to move up against me! and even opened his eyes a little! It was so special!

The Labour and delivery went really well, From when the nurses said I was actually in labour to when I had Quinton was just over 2 hours! there were no complications and I didn't need any pain meds (other than the gas mask) so I felt great after! We held him and loved him until he went to be with Jesus and older brother Noah in Heaven. It was wonderful and horrible all at the same time, wonderful we got to see him alive, horrible that we had to give him up.

We had the Funeral/Memorial for him on Sunday the 25th and It was so nice, we were so thankful to everyone that supported us by being there and those that supported us in prayer! we had a balloon release after we closed his grave which was beautiful. we had 100 blue balloons with butterflies attached for Noah and the same thing but green balloons for Quinton. What was really cool is that the balloons headed north but someone commented on my moms blog that they found one of Noah's and Quintons balloons side by side in a field down in the states! I was so happy to hear that! I will try to post pics soon!

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Baby Wall #3

So on March 30th in the afternoon was our first ultrasound (12 weeks) I had been very nervous, scared, excited, and really tried to be calm and have faith that no matter what the outcome God is there for us. We get to the ultrasound room and the tech started the ultrasound, she was looking around for awhile but I had already seen. I seen that the neural tube had not closed and there was a puffyness around the baby's head which is part of the brain. I desperately tried to convince myself that maybe I didn't know what I was seeing and that the baby was fine. Deep down I knew that I was seeing the brain. (also we have been to at least 8 ultrasounds with the last 2 babies so I kinda new what I was looking for and at already). Hank then asked the tech if the baby was healthy, before she responded I looked at Hank and shook my head, and she then said no I am sorry this baby has Meckel Gruber. I couldn't believe my ears even though I already knew, why are asked to give up another baby, how am I going to handle and get through this again? She was so kind and just rubbed my arm as I broke down on the bed. They got the Dr in as well to confirm and take another look and he also said that he could see the kidneys already ( which you never should be able to at 12 weeks) so that was another sign that it is again MG. After that we just wanted to go home so we didn't speak to the geneticist or anything at this visit.

At our second ultrasound at 16.5 weeks we saw that the kidneys are huge!( from cysts) and from what I can tell will be bigger than Noah's. we saw the extra finger on each hand and the extra toe on each foot ( the third and final marker of Meckel Gruber) We found out that we are having another boy! and his name is Quinton Oliver. It is so hard to see our baby with such a big belly and the brain that is partway outside his scull. I know I shouldn't feel this way since there isn't anything that we can do to change the outcome since it is genetic, but I feel like a horrible mother that I cant have all healthy kids.

at 17 weeks I started to feel him kick and he is a strong one!! With Noah I felt it at 21 weeks and with Zander at 19 weeks. I was startled to find out that you could feel it so soon! He moves soooo much almost constant and I love feeling it especially since it is one of the few things I get bond with and to keep in my memory. We are doing ok, and are so thankful to everyone who brought us suppers and for their prayers they DO help!! I felt like I hadn't morned this baby at all yet and was almost feeling bad cause it was like I was just trying to forget about it and pretend it wasn't happening which was easier when I couldn't feel him move. but just this last week has been horrible for me i find myself crying sometimes for and hour straight trying to stop but not able to. and this went on for the whole week, I guess it needed to come out and it was probably good for me to cry. So please keep us in your prayers as we have to go through this all again! Our next ultrasound is June 8th and we are looking forward to seeing him again since we get about 40 min of just watching him on the screen every time and its amazing and special!

On a cute note if I ask Zander where Mommy's baby is he pats my belly, hugs and kisses it and it warms my heart every time:)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Its been awhile!

I can't believe how long its been since I have posted! We went to Mexico in December for a cousins wedding and took Zander with us! We were really worried how he would do on the flight and at the resort. He did so amazing! He didn't cry at all on the flights, and he was almost perfect out there, he even cut 2 teeth out there!

In Feb out little Zander turned 1! boy has that gone by fast! Also we found out that we are expecting again! We are so excited but also a bit nervous, praying for a healthy baby! for the most part we have been at peace about it. Our first ultrasound is March 30 so please keep us in your prayers! I will keep updating, I promise it won't be so long next time lol.

Monday, August 30, 2010


Our first family picture (only and hour old)

Zander 3 days old

3 weeks old
4 weeks old
My dad just watching Zander sleep

After bath time

Nana & Papa with Zander

Auntie Vikki with Zander

First trip to Grandforks and swimming

First Air show (3months)

The way Zander slept at 4 months

It has been a long time since I have posted! Life just has been so wonderfully busy, being a mom is even better than I had ever imagined:) Zander has been such a content happy baby, we have been very blessed with that. He is now 6 and a half months and growing like a weed, he rolls all over the place, sits by himself, and just today started to give us hi fives when we ask him for one! such a smart little guy! He is growing so fast I can hardly remember him as a little baby!

I miss Noah like crazy still, every time Zander does something new or cute It is so bittersweet for me. because in the back of my mind I am so sad that I never got to see Noah do those things and it hurts so much. Sometimes when Zander is being super cute I actually start crying because I am so happy that the Lord has blessed me with a healthy baby!

This summer we (or I should say Hank) rebuilt our over 600 sq feet deck since our old one that came with the house was rotting through and we could hardly walk on it. After the deck was almost done we found a cheap used 16 foot pool that we bought for beside the deck, and Zander loves swimming in it!

My sister and her boyfriend got engaged this summer and I am going to be her maid of honor! so now that the dress is bought no getting pregnant before next year lol. This summer as well was my parents 25th anniversary and also my dads big 50th birthday! cant think of anything else to write about so I will just put up some pictures.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Zander David Wall

We finally got to meet our little boy! Zander was born on Feb 7th at 11:10pm and weighed 8 lbs 3 oz, and was 21.5 inches long.

On Sunday morning at 3 am I thought that my water had broken. It wasn't a lot but it was noticeable, so I laid back down and then got back up about 10 min later and had it happen again. Then I knew for sure that it was my water, Hank was not very happy because we had only gone to bed around 2:30 am and he had a pretty bad headache! My contractions were not coming on so at 1:30 pm on Sunday they had to induce me. By 2:30 my contractions were pretty painful but I got through them until around 9:00 pm. By then they were in my back and very painful but I did not want the epidural again because it did not work out the best for me last time. They checked me at that point and I was only at 3 cm! ( I went in being 2.) I was very discouraged and they decided to let me try the morphine. Waist of time! all it did was make me a little light headed but did nothing for the contractions.

By 10:00 I was ready to try something else for pain. Dr Nause came in then and said That I could not have some of the pain meds because they could not mix with the morphine. She decided to check me again because of the way I described the pain of the contractions, and told me that I was almost 10 cm! That was really good for me to hear because I got focused again and told myself I could do it! ( I can't believe I went from 3 to 10 in an hour). They gave me the laughing gas to just take the edge off the contractions to get me through till pushing. With the next few contractions I could feel my body pushing and I was not doing it! I told her and she checked me again but told me to try not to push because My cervix was not quite ready and she did not want me to tear from the inside, but I told her that I could not help it that my body was doing it all on its own! And then I started to push with them!

She was able to slip the cervix over the babys head and told me that I could push that it was all good now. And 3 pushes later( about 10 min altogether) Zander David was born! I could not believe how fast that went since with Noah I pushed for 4.5 hours. I thought for sure that I had torn since he came out so fast but she told me that I did not tear at all! I was so thankful. They put him on my chest when he came out it was so wonderful! I kept saying I have a baby and he is alive! The most wonderful moment of my life! it was so neat because his eyes were open already and he was looking at me! Then he started to pee and it almost landed in my mouth! They stopped it just in time. Once they cleaned the room up I tried feeding and he latched on right away which I was happy for, glad that there was no problems with that.

After I was done feeding my family came in, another wonderful moment! and we talked a bit and passed him around. Hanks family then came in and Hank told him that we had named him Zander David after my dad, I think we surprised him with that one! Everyone didn't stay long since it was after 12 already. A big thanks everyone who prayed for our little miracle!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Almost There!

I now have 14 days left till my due date! I am really nervous, excited, and so much more, it still feels unreal that this time I will be able to take our baby home with us! Our nursery is finished now and I love just sitting in there and rocking on the rocking chair just looking around and day dreaming about what it will be like with my little boy.

We went to Texas Roadhouse for Hanks birthday, I wasn't sure if I should go since I am so close to my due date and It is a bit of a drive. But we went anyways and it was sooooo good! we also picked up a lot of stuff for the house since we are slowly working on finishing the basement. I am very nervous about going into labour going through all the pain again lol, Please think and pray for me as my date gets nearer!

Monday, November 23, 2009

12 Weeks and 2 Days to go!

I can't belive that we have only 12 weeks to go! So far all we have ready for the baby is new rug in the baby room! On wednesday we are going to the city with my parents and we hope to be buying lots of baby things. It is such a different and wonderful feeling for us to actually get something ready, with Noah we had decided not to so that we would not have to walk past an empty nursrey every day.

My specialist appointments are all done! my last one was at 22 weeks and everything was looking just as it should so now I just have my regular Drs appointments! My next appointment is going to be Dec 11 and I have to take the sugar drink to test for pregnancy diabetes, I am a little worried about that I have heard it tastes awful. In winkler all they do is a thumb prik to test for that, but in morden they like to do this test because she said it is way more accurate.

I have been debating on the whole H1N1 flu shot and after lots and lots of thinking, praying, and reasearching I have desided not to get it. I am hoping that I made the right choice and with it being so new and so little testing on what it may do to unborn babies I could not risk that not after losing one already. (But that is just my opinion).

It has been almost a year since we lost Noah on December 12th. We are not sure what we want to do that day yet since we have never had to before. but I want to make it special anyone have any ideas?

I will be posting some pictures of me and of baby #2 soon!